When it comes to religion I’ve been floundering lately, if I’m honest I’ve been burned up, like a crisp. Well to be really honest for the last few years and most of of my life I’m hot and then cold, so Bi Polar about my faith I doubt most know I’m a Christian, and you’d never know I do multiple Bible studies, devotions and read verses on my phone. I’ve felt lost.
My Christian friends keep hanging on to me but, I sure do try and pull away.
Enter last week. A trip I planned with a friend, to Nashville, sounded like fun, and maybe a way to find myself spiritually. well, I picked up that friend of mine and, we talked, about everything for FOUR days. Unless we were in worship, or sleeping we were talking.
In worship I found myself. I found myself, I cannot enunciate these words too much. Everything I’d been missing I found. New friends, new concepts, old concepts that came alive, I found it all. It was solidly refreshing. Women from all kinds of faiths, and areas of the country.
These new fiends, gave me podcasts, and then I found more. You see, it’s easy to go to Church one day a week, but that gives the devil 6 days to come from you, and boy oh boy did he. I failed, and floundered, and conformed etc and so on.
Now, I am immersing myself in God, anyway I can find him. And, he can wrap his arms around me and keep me safe. I cannot do this on my own, in my own power. I just cannot. I need God, i thirst for God, I am changed by Him. He was always there all I had to do was turn around and find him. I am not kidding you.
Thank God for Lifeway Women!
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